If I wanna change

This evening , just have looked any other people's fotos and blog , caused such many feeling . Suddenly have a bit admired them,their easily and happy life . I am not to say that I lived hard and unhappy , only have these meanings at this moment . Occationly when man see somebody or something , they will begin to associate others or themselves . So will I .

I'm afraid I haven't the ability to bear any temptation . Now I am typing these words with fear . My proudest reason is shaking . But the reality of the society guarding the door of my mind . I wanna change or do some others , but can hardly accept it's consequence . I'm a poltroon . I won't to recieve which I want to get , will I ?

Armed with apathy ，laugh all off , after that , then find I am very weak in fact . Per a long time , I already dare not to love and to be loved . I think I haven't the qualification and valor , although I wanna so .

一直以来都觉得爱是个模糊的字眼，可是它又有致命的吸引力，引得无数的男女跳入其中，接着他们便尝到了仿佛世间所有的滋味：甜蜜的，幸福的，苦恼的，沮丧的，痛苦的，怨恨的。。。即使有些人因为怕自己受到伤害而拒绝爱，但一旦爱来到了他/她的面前，还是会忍不住往下跳，即使心里有个声音在说：危险！说到底，没人能抵挡。别忘了，我们只是凡人，我们有七情六欲，我们终究是身处红尘中的。

虽然如是说，我却一直都没能做个聪明人，一直逼迫自己，压抑自己，直到后来，甚至忘了心痛的滋味。

悲伤或痛苦不是坏事，因为，它们至少能证明你曾经爱过。多一道伤疤何妨，那是成长的代价！

2007.7.29 23:50

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